Good News

3hours is nothing. It is something, I have to stop calculating time into money, dollars into yen...
man made river side facilities, but it is the only thing makes me relieved.
Bus traffic freaks me out and can not feel any ease ,
Today I took home by bike,,,I did it from the advice of my mum... explore the city and find out what you got.

I talked to my dear friend from high school. He is so genuine and I did not feel anything wrong with it cos I am like that too.  but now, he is still so straight forward to what he feels passionated about, I have so much doubts inside of myself so I felt ashamed. But he really believes in me, my spirits, thinks I am same types of the person. I totally understand his point, doing whatever you love even though it doesnot makes you rich.
but people judge people either from their reputation or money they make.

I am so impressed my his gut ,  so pure spirit to help others , the impressive thing is that he is such a elith university graduate and normally people feel superier than others but he is not like that at all.

What I can do, what I want to do

Negative

fear for the future
fear of the day
to be truthful to myself
obligation
not doing anything
what shall  I start?
even though I have a desire to myself, what I want to achieve, how I want to be, it is so scary to begin with. I am just a little scared deer.
think about today,
think about a week after,
think about a year after ,
think about before you die.

Today, I want to wash my laundry, set up the room, going to the library, wash my shooses, study, eat my cheesecake,